Life At Large

Well, people, I'M SORRY!!!

been getting shot down in MSN by most ppl about the lack of updates over here on my blog and that even when i do put up something its gotta do with everything but me. But yes, well, i've been busy alright?

And even that is something everybody in my little world seems to shoot me down for. DONN? He's always busy. He's never home on time. He's never at class on time if its his working day. He can't make it for group meetings cos he's gotta go back to JB on weekends. He doesn't meet his frens cos he's got to make time for other ppl who hasn't met and is REQUIRED to meet or else face the music. He doesn't have the time to talk on the phone cos he's gotta attend to other issues at hand. DINNER MEETING? Forget it dude, he ain't gonna make it. BOY'S NIGHT OUT? Oh trust me, something will come up particularly right on that day. And ppl, i'm way too busy for my own good at times and i'm really sick of it.

The idea of the lack of time never really struck me hard till i started cancelling meetings with frens, the lil' catch up's, the coffee's, the dinners... all cos of other commitments. and those commitments can most days ad most times be nerve wrecking cos its those things that require that extra time or things go awry. and gosh is it difficult to deal with those. i hope i ain't confusing ya'll by talking in riddles, but well, tts just the way things are in my life right now. Friends, romans and countrymen, they are all but a dream right now.

Focus, my focus right now is quite simple. Stay safe till ORD, which is coming around the bend. less than 4 months and it'll be over with. After which, full time studies hopefully? I don't know. Have financial commitments as well. At this tender age of 21. Bills to pay. Insurance to pay. family contributions. Self maintanence. Seems kinda like a dream. And when i watch stupid movies with teenage stars with millions in their pocket, it just makes me wonder, about the fairness and equality of the world. Just imagine a well fed, fashion blessed, gorgeously roofed kid and compare him\her with a kid out of a desert in Africa, malnutritioned, sleeping under trees, maybe a thatched hut if they're lucky, dry from the lack of water and eating roots and even grubs. All those millions. Think about what the RICH could do if they only THOUGHT about it. If only they could FEEL the pain of all those millions who suffer and have no voice. Really, just what is this world all about?

okayyyy.... Back to the topic, while i'm trying to stay safe and outt sight and lay low till ORD, i' trying very hard to focus on my studies. My books just arrived from LONDON!! *APPLAUSE* If not for Mr Frenky Tjioe, i wonder how our whole class would have just sat ard waiting for our books. He's a mover he is. Hats of to you Frenky!! And after that wondrous ORD date, i'm planning to sit my ass at home and study till my head hurts for those exams in MAY and ace them. I have promises to keep and this is certainly asblatant and rude and in the face as i can get to reminding myself what i owe myself. This after all is something only i can do aye? No one's going to write those papers for me and say, "hey, u made it, 2nd yr beckons!", are they? That's certainly not the way this world is. I have plans. And yes I have a dream. Like that song ya know? By the artiste Common. i have a dream. Yes, i still have one. I really feel that song. and dudes and dudettes out there, i'm gonna make those dreams come true.

And right now, with my 7 stitch toe which hurts like hell, i'm heading to bed. With the hope that tomorrow, will be a good day. with less rain, less pain and a whole lot more gain. Diwali has been alright. Nothing remarkable, but alright. you know ppl, in life, we gotta work hard to get what we want and where we want. I've realised that and it's time to work. Good nite everyone. Thank you for tuning in. =D

Adios.